1 post tagged “cw”

It's 2009. The last time I used this thing to blog and not just to keep track of books, it was 2007 and my life was totally different. OK, not totally, but 2008 brought me to my knees to re-evaluate everything I thought was real. 2008 will not be a year I soon forget, but I wish I could. Life is new. A strange thing for a girl like me whose every move has always been plotted, planned, calculated carefully to achieve certain results. 2008 saw all that crash and burn. Have to plan anew.

New

Everything is new

eyes that were blind

open now and confused

deciphering meaning from new

shapes against old shadows.

The old shapes I knew

that moved predictably

in and out

of an old backdrop, faded

like memories beneath memories,

tooth decay, graying roots, and dirt.

What spring bud will grow here?

One long stalk to stand

and face the sun, the light

alone or more than

one stem, braver together

than alone?

When this frost melts,

the dirt ready to give way,

whatever comes is new

life unto the world.                                                        

Give it space to revel in new light.

This is a new game,

rules unwritten, ephemeral

from piece to piece,

space to space, move to move,

heart to heart.

There is no strategy for me

to conceive and use to dominate

because winning and losing

come from the same font

at the same time, a steady stream

of catch 22. Lost and found

when what you find is never the same

as what you lost.

Everything I seek to find is

something new.